We will be running

This dance gives me the chills & makes me cry every damn time!
If you know anyone who has fought breast cancer, I think you will understand.



I miss my dance studio so much - keep spreading your light & love girls, you're all so beautiful. I hope you realize the power of what you do. Stay healthy & take care of your bodies, you need to be healthy to be a strong dancer. It can all be taken away from you so quickly. Trust me.

I can't resist the day

Canadian transform into Bacon - GO!

"I love restaurant-bars with neon lights.... but I never know if I should eat or dance" - Evan on our walk home from the Met

Starting my Christmas list early...

THINGS I NEED:
Someone to laugh with me
Someone to slow dance with me
A new good book to read
A big bathtub to relax in & read that new good book in
Someone who will play with my hair when my heads in their lap
To loose 10 lbs.
Get my hair cut & colored
Someone to play Skipbo with me
Someone who will do the grueling NYC apartment hunting with me & let me put my hands in their pockets when they get cold
To get my shoulder piece started
A room all to myself, and to have my "best bed in the world" moved up from Michigan
Someone who will stay home on a Friday night & play old video games with me.... & not let me win
Someone to make me love cuddling again.



I think that's all for now,
I'm a simple girl?

What's your Dad like?

You choose your friends, they're not like your family

"I was thinking how proud I was that I haven't drank all week - then I realized it was only Monday!" - my roommate Maggie.

Tomorrow is the perfect day

My talent is erasing people, but I can't get you off my mind.

You shouldn't let someone else get your kicks for you

Someone told me they wanted to "be like me" today.
That thought is terrrrrifying and almost insulting, not flattering like many would assume it to be.

Our society is so fogged with improving ourselves to mimic false idols.
We should be all striving to be better versions of ourselves - not attempting to fit someone else's mold.
"Being like someone" is an impossible goal that will only leave someone feeling more self loathing because of their obvious inability to "be" like anyone.... but themselves!
I just wish some people could learn to love themselves enough to know it's okay to be whomever the crazy individual they are.
You can't teach people these lessons either, they have to learn them for themselves and develop love for themselves in their own time - and I hattte that! I wish I could just make everyone see how uniquely beautiful they are.
Granted... I have my self loathing days [sometimes weeks/months] BUT I've learned to value more important things about myself than my looks & I've learned that I can only be as brilliant & beautiful as I allow myself.

As Marianne Williamson says, "Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? "

Satan's Insect

Best video, ever.
Mad love for Mr. Gross! ha ha

FIESTA

My roommate and I decided we'd make some tacos for dinner. Maggie was having a hard time holding her taco and adding all the "fixings" at the same time. In her frustration she says, "We really need to invent those taco plates.... or what about taco feeders?" I reply, "Or we can just hire a Mexican to feed us our tacos."


While enjoying our tacos I bring up the fact that Maggie's ex is Mexican. I ask, "Is Eric's family REALLY Mexican?" She laughs and says, "His Dad is. If you Google "Mexican" a picture of him comes up."

All Hallows Eve

Pinocchio, bitches!

Birthday Fever

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU PARTY WITH ME!
ha ha ha
Sorry I killed you Danny :X

While you were sleeping, I figured out everything

I tell everyone I haaaaate to cuddle,
but the secret is: I miss being held.
I'm just scared of being seen as "needy."

Experiment

What if...
I drop out of school & join a commune out in the middle of no where?

It frequently crosses my mind.
frequently!

Value

I am more confused now than ever.
Supposedly I'm "living my dream"
but it doesn't feel like anything.


I can't help but give into my loneliness
Everything I thought I knew feels so distant
Everything new feels so permanent


I need a place to call my own
even just a hand to hold.
I just want to be held...
apathetic arms and all.

Belief

I'm not sure who the author of this is, but I swear I could have written this.



I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do
but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important.
It's what they do about it.

I've learned that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing
and have the best time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you
when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish.
Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. |
It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to
can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again.
Families aren't biological.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken
the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight,
I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.

I've learned that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.

I've learned that we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret.
It could change your life forever.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children,
they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.

I've learned that no matter how many friends you have,
if you are their pillar you will feel lonely and lost
at the times you need them most.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meaning,
it loses value when overly used.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line |
between being nice and not hurting people's feelings
and standing up for what you believe.

Luke warm

My best friend is leaving to go back to Detroit tomorrow.
I've already cried.

Back to being Miss Lonely.