Somewhere the night sky hangs like a blanket

Yesterday Alyssa and I went up to Coney to grab a quick bite, as we usually do on a typical weekday night. As we pull in we see Jim Gross sitting on the curb playing an acoustic guitar, and some dirty looking kid laying on the hood of his car next to him. We get out of my car, after we finish jamming to Whiskeytown, and say "Hi." I probably haven't spoken more than 2 words to Jim since the days of party at Ryan Brisse's first apartment over at Lakeside Village, before I knew what was good for me. I then notice this hothothot low rider Harley in a parking space next to us and start ooooogling over it, and talking about how the next motor vehicle I buy will be a motorcycle similar to this. The dirty kid on the hood of the car, perks up and says, "wanna go for a ride?" I scoff and laugh at him and say, "uh huh, suuuuuuure!" because I highly doubt this is hisssss ride. He gets rather offensive and proceeds to pull the keys to said motorcycle out of his pocket and says, "lets go!" I set down my purse with Alyssa and Jim on the side of the curb and hop on the back of this hothothot motorcycle with my shorts & high-heels on. He took me for a short ride & honestly, there's no better way to enjoy summertime than feeling the wind hit your face and being completely exposed to the elements. He smelled like a mixture of whiskey and earth. It's sort of how a guy who drives a motorcycle should smell. I liked it. Moral of the story, I reallyyyyyyyyy need a motorcycle - or just a boyfriend who drives a hothothot motorcycle, asap.

In your reflection, I'm perfect.

I've come to realize the no matter how empty and lonely I feel,
no matter how self loathing I become, when I give up loving myself,
and feel as if there's not a single soul on this planet that could love a mess like me,
that He will always be there embracing me with his grace and blessings.
He has never given up on me.

My life has been paved with such golden moments.
I spend so much time dwelling on the "hardtimes;" and all the battles I've had to overcome
that I forget to give thanks for the truly smooth sailing course I have charted along the way.
Without my vices, my battles, my downfalls - I would have just floated through the past few years, and been a very shallow girl.
Instead I am full of a much deeper substance, a deeper understanding of self, my place in the Global Community, and my duty to create change and teach the power of love.

Life is delicate, but the longest thing we will ever experience.
I hear the clock ticking, like a perpetual time bomb waiting to put an end to it all
so I fight a little bit harder to leave if only a watermark of my existance upon the lives of those I've encountered.
I'm fighting to be "Better Every Day."
It is a fight, still, but a fight I am battling to the grave for.

Convince me to please you

I am soooo in love with this dance.



I miss dance, more than I could even put into words.
Maybe one day I can show you how much I've missed it
with a dance all of my own.
It's coming soon, I feel it.