Moving on...

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.


Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.


LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

SOONER THAN LATER

After trying to push you away
& making excuses to not come see you
because I knew it was probably for the best,
it's confirmed... you are the guy I feared you were.
I'm so disgusted to think you tried to tool me into being just another one of "those girls"
cause God knows there certainly is a listtttttt.
I'm not impressed by your "fame," your connections,
your emo lyrics, or the fact that you showed the slightest interest in me.

You really couldn't handle me...
I'm more real & honest with myself than you'll probably ever be.
Stick to your scene sluts;
they'll get on their knees for you.

I should never consider making exceptions to my rule:
NO GUYS IN BANDS.
Because, once again it is confirmed... they are all tools :]

A PROMISE DOESN'T MEAN A THING ANYMORE

MY BOY IS HOOOOOOME :]
MOVING DAY WAS FUN TODAY.
I'M EXHAUSTED THOUGH.
THE APARTMENT IS CUUUUTE & SO ARE THE "HIS" (ADAM'S) & "HER" (JOE... BECAUSE HE IS THE SUBMISSIVE ONE, HA HA!) STORAGE OTTOMANS WE BOUGHT.... ALONG WITH THE BUDDHA CANDLE HOLDER AND BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!

RANTS :]
1. BACK TO CLASSES TOMORROW, DAMMIT.
2. SOME ASSHOLE TOOK OFF TO L.A. WITH MY LOUIS VUITTON BELT (WHICH I ORIGINALLY DIDN'T EVEN CARE ABOUT AND WASN'T EVEN PLANNING TO ASK FOR IT BACK, BUT HE INTENTIONALLY AVOIDED ME BECAUSE HE WAS A PUSSY & SCARED I WOULD ASK FOR IT BACK - WELL I SORT OF HAVE A REASON TO, DON'T YOU THINK? IT ISSSSS MINE.) IT'S NOT EVEN WORTH IT TO ME THOUGH, JUST SHOWS YOU HOW SHITTY AND SELFISH SOME PEOPLE REALLY ARE.
3. I'M SUCH A SICK BABY RIGHT NOW :X I WANT TO RIP OUT MY ORGANS - I CAN'T REALLY EAT ANYTHING WITHOUT MY ULCER FREAKING OUT AND PUTTING ME INTO SO MUCH PAIN I WANT TO JUMP OUT OF MY SKIN. I NEED TO GO GET ANOTHER ENDOOSCOPY OR SOMETHING - THIS STUPID THING WAS SUPPOSE TO HEAL AND OBVIOUSLY IT HASN'T, EVEN AFTER HEAVY DOSAGES OF MEDS. EVERYDAY FOR LIKE A YEAR. THIS IS SUCH A PROBLEM!

I'M GETTING MY JEEP TOMORROW ANDDDDD DOUBLE DATE WITH ADAM + JOE & A LADY.

DESPITE ALL THE SHITTTT THAT IS NOT SO "HOT" RIGHT NOW, I AM HAPPY AND GETTING MORE MOTIVATED TO GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK. I'VE BEEN MAKING SHITTY DECISIONS LATELY AND I'M DONE WITH THE B.S. I WANT MORE FOR MYSELF.

BONNE NUIT.

TO THE OTHER RAT BASTARD

Bah ha ha - I told you so :]
SHE WAS ONLY TEMPORARY.

TYING UP LOOSE ENDS

Note to all those who even give a damn:
It's not what I say that you should pay attention to, it's what I do - because what I say will probably:
not make anyyyy sense
come out the wrong way
be "bitchy" when I'm only trying to pretend that I'm not hurting
be completely sarcastic

Actions speak louder than words.
You know I love you, you know I care.