Your bed, is where I belong

I hope you still smell me on your sheets.

Does she fit so perfectly as I did, baby?

She's only temporary.

A YEAR FROM NOW

THIS SONG IS PERFECT FOR RIGHT NOW.
I CAN'T STOP CRYING, I'M SO PATHETIC !!!!



Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, Cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish i would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things i've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess i've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause i'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?

HEAVEN IS WHEN YOU FINALLY FEEL ALIVE

I have a "bad habit" of never deleting any of my Messages on MySpace, and I have 280 some pages dating back to about a year and a half ago. I started going back and reading a lot of the old ones and realized how much I miss how outgoing I was. I was so full of "life," and untouchable! I want to be untouchable again. I want the world to want to be my friend as much as I want to embrace it. I feel like there is so much give on my part lately and not much received in return. I'm not all about the "tit-for-tat" crap, but sometimes I like to be told, "You're cute," or flirted with. I also have lost the drive and concentration I use to have. I still want all those fabulous things out of life, but I get stuck in the mindset that "I don't deserve it." It's really remarkable how things can change so dramatically, and you never realize everything is changing because it's such a slow process. Then one day you look back on who you WERE and it's nothing like who you ARE. I'm not sure if I like who I am now... compared to who I was... I should be maturing into a more confident young women, but I feel I have regressed in so many ways. I feel almost too old, aged and looking at the world through a more tainted lens. I miss my freedom and eagerness to take on the world, I NEED to find this again. I say I need to get out of here, but I can't leave until I find what it was that made life so vibrant before. If you remember, clue me in. I'm on a mission babies! Support me & love me, or stay the hell out of my way - nothing is holding me back from getting what I want this time. All I want is "ME," once again.

You can't save her !!!!

You say I don't know who you are anymore
I'll let you pretend I have it all wrong
The truth is I know how this is going to end
I've had it planned out since the moment we first locked eyes across the noisy room
I took part of you with me,
and I'm not giving it back

Reflections

I found a picture
from two years ago
we're sitting on your front steps
after you took me to eat icecream
and I couldn't even finish a kiddie cone
You loved me then
what happened?
I have that hoodie you were wearing
I'm wearing it right now.
I wish I could still smell you on it,
but you've gone - and never looked back.

I look back

KATY PERRY SAID IT FOR ME

IF YOU WANNA RUN
JUST NAME YOUR PRICE
DON'T PLAY CHEAP
WITH YOUR HEART
DON'T MAKE A BET
IF YOU CAN'T WRITE THE CHECK
FOR ME
CAUSE I CAN BE BOUGHT
BUT YOU'LL PAY THE COST
IF YOU CAN AFFORD ME


IF YOU WANT ME I'M NOT A PEICE OF ASS
A ONE NIGHT STAND
A STORAGE SHED
I THINK YOU BETTER WALK BY TONIGHT
IF YOU WANT ME THEN STOP BEGGING
I DON'T PUT OUT FOR CHARITY
IF YOU WANT ME THERE'S NO DISCOUNT PRICE TONIGHT


I DON'T NEED YOUR $$ DOLLAR BILLS
I JUST WANT SOMETHING REAL.

What it's like to miss a friend

I've been playing your song on repeat
for the last two days
Laying in bed, beating myself up for you.
Come lay with me,
tickle my arms like you know I like.
I'm sorry -
My lips get ahead of me.